they only ask you how you’re doing to hear you say “fine”.

Neil Hilborn & Ollie Renee Schminkey (via vtlien)

I think a lot about killing myself, not like a point on a map, but rather like a glowing exit sign at a show that’s never been quite bad enough to make me want to leave. See, when I’m up I don’t kill myself because holy shit! there’s so much left to do! And when I’m down, I don’t kill myself because then the sadness would be over and the sadness is the old paint under the new. I’d still be me without it, but I’d be so boring.

Neil Hilborn (via to-withstand-the-force-of-storms)